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Monday 5 May 2014

It’s hard to admit but the inevitable has happened and I have to acknowledge my age is catching up with me – as yet I refuse to say it has totally caught up!
         What happened to change my attitude.  We moved house.  They say that the stress of moving is second to divorce or death of a loved one.  I had always laughed at this concept, what softies people are was my conclusion.  House moving for me was a regular occurrence – this was my 30th to date – I always approached it with optimism and excitement.  A new house, a new beginning, new friends and a chance to get rid of things and to finally sort out the drawers, which, I promised myself every New Year I would keep tidy and which every year were neglected and so full one had difficulty shutting them – until a moving date was arranged.
        Were we making the right choice never entered my mind – mansion, new build or cottage the anticipation was great and was, I thought, similar to the first day back at school or starting to write a new novel.
       This time the muddle we created doesn’t get any better after three weeks of taking possession the removal boxes await my attention, loads of them.  My theory is that at night they have orgies and create more boxes to empty.
       It’s not as if we are dumbing down, no way, this house is larger than move number 29 was, so sorting should be easier.  Wrong!  This house is cluttered to the roof top with my things.
      ‘ You own too much,  you’ve got to get rid of some stuff . . .’  This is the opinion of my long suffering daughter who is already custodian to loads of books, coffee tables, curtains and linen.   It’s easy to say but hard to do.  How can I possibly choose when most of my stuff – how I hate that word - for what is stuff to some is treasure to me. 
      For example, I have some hideous ornaments of dogs – presents from my children when young, how can I throw them away?  I have virtually every birthday, valentine and Christmas card sent me.  I have hats I never wear but remind me of the day I wore them and the happiness I encountered.  I do sometimes throw things out – witness the scores of champagne bottles I once jettisoned, it was hard for on each one I had written what we had been celebrating when we had drunk it. 
       Then there are the paintings.  I love them all, the walls of my homes are normally crowded with them, each one tells me where it wants to go – I used to hang them myself, now the arthritis in my elbows won’t let me so they stand forlorn waiting to put up.  Old age is not for wimps my friend Felicity told me.
       I’d best not start on the clothes.  Suffice to say the optimist I am always hopes I will one day get in those that are too small for me, and the logical me says best to keep everything that is too big incase I get larger.  To compound the problem I’ve bought some new – mainly to cheer me up.
       I am tired of the struggle.  Fed up with doing too much.  Fearful of the knowledge that I can no longer do what I used to do.   Am I old?  Too old for this moving lark.
        Depression loomed large until a friend’s mother said it was time I acknowledged I was old.  Unwittingly she is my savior.  Old?  Me? B******* say I as I open yet another box


1 comment:

  1. I thought that last sentence was going to end "as I open another bottle of champagne." Why don't you? Things will seem better afterwards.